handwriting and my actual diary
"A phone call to a good friend will ease your mind and lift your spirits."
cool
and then the page on the right is just covered with random sticky notes i write. most of them are really random scribbles and pointless doodles that i dont remember are of or from or for so... they just get stuck in my diary
04/02/2024
its the amazon basics journal or something it might be moleskine idk what that is
it sits on my desk with the rest of my books. the only difference is the blank black and torn spine that i beat the life out of trying to make it lay flat so i can write in it comfortably. and i mean it worked but she looks... like shes been through a lot...
its really full of a lotttt of stuff and not just tons of my thoughts and experiences from the past year (started on feb 4 2023), a ton of paper and materials too. i looove collecting and decorating things (see: my site). on the cover ive got quite a few stickers on it. just 2 on the back and random dirt and dust that collects on the back of books?
first page (inside of the cover) has the start date and my full name on a green sticky note. underneath it i wrote a lot of unnecessary personal info lol because this is a diary buttttt like its just a diary. dont need that shit in here
anyway ive taped fortunes from fortune cookies (that ive stolen when my parents get chinese food) all over the page.
"A clean concious is a good pillow."
"Affirm it, visualize it, believe it, and it will actualize itself."
"A bold attempt is half of success."
"Anything is possible with a willing heart."
"A good memory is fine but the ability to forget is the one true test of greatness."
the rest of the pages are kind of really embarrassing and if my awkward thoughts and feelings werent enough then the struggle to find a diary-entry-writing style is wayyy over the top..idk.... its finding a way to express myself over writing or something. whatever. eventually i came to something like this i think i stopped caring
the very end of the book has a folder full of even more random stuff like candy wrappers and coupons and handouts and notebook paper with notes and postcards etc. the cover of the folder is covered in pony stickers lol from the new mlp gen
i am almost done with it so ill be buying another one soon. honestly ive probably written more and about more important things online, but.. i guess having something physical to write in and think in and with, away from the internet and anyone else... i guess its important..?